okkk...!!! 2 years and not a single post..!!

hiiii everybodyyyy !!!..
2 years and not a single post !! i dunno wht i have been doing all this time...!!!..hmm..well, a lot things happened in the last 2 years, few good,few very good, many bad and many that i regret !!!!....but for all i knw is that in the last 2 years i have achieved something commendable and that i have always dreamt of...atleast i knw that on the professional front i am doing well even though personal life has gone to the drains..... so what you guys upto? and do suggest me what to write down next....i have been thinking for the last 30 mins as to what my next topic should be but i guess my creativity has been rusted in the last two years.. !!!!! lol...:):)

TURNING 21...EVEN MORE PANICKING..l(l(

Hi again guys !!!! yesterday evening after i posted my experiences abt how i wrapped up my UG education and how shit paranoid i am to step into PG education and i suddenly realised tht i was getting OLD !!!! it was thn it striked me sumwhr tht "oops ! i am actually turning 21 next month...oh..sorry..IN LESS THN A MONTH..!!!this mite not be tht a big deal for many of u reading this but sumhow its freaking me out...BIG TIME !!!!!

Its like an end of the era !!! i am never going to feel how turning 16 feels to be...its actually going to be like an end of a TEEN ERA !!! life after this isnt going to be the same anymore..i am rite here standing to set out on a different journey altogether...!!!!!!!!!

As a kid,i absolutely loved waiting for my birthday...August was my favourite month...i loved planning for my birthday party,rite from planning games for the party,sending invitations,buying the return gifts and ofcourse also the GIFTS tht my friends wld bring for me..:):):):P:P:D...tht was the most exciting part actually...:P.........

Alas, all tht is never ever going to cum back again....:(:(:(:(...no more turning sweet 16 :(:(...boo hooobahh bahhh...:(:(:(:(:(

i am no more thrilled for AUGUST and definitely not my birthday...
If not 16,i hope to remain 21 all my life...:):):)...actually...,i think this is wht i am going to wish this time on 29th aug !!!

All of you out thr who turned 21,plz share ur experiences with me and also those ppl who r yet to turn 21 :):):):)

COLLEGE OVER...PANICKING !!!

hiiii ppl..i am back into blogging...:):)..i am finally done with my coll and i have been free for the last 3 months...i have been free all this longggggg and i have nooo idea why i havent posted a single blog....the last time i wrote a blog was like one year back...and frankly speaking,i dont think one can make any time during the final year of college...anyways, talking abt college,its weird as to how the last 3 years have passed sooooo swiftly..i still distinctly remember the day 15th JUNE 2005 whn i joined st.francis..tht was the first day of my coll and i was shit scared abt everything..abt studies coz microbiology and biochemistry were like just born babies in the industry and abt ppl..i was dead paranoid abt the ppl who were going to b around me..and abt everything and anything..:P:P:P:):)..after tht how my 1st year slipped away and how 2nd year popped in,and how tht got over and how i landed in my 3rd year....whoaaaa...i am in a way thankful tht it all got over soooo quickly coz i badly wanted to get out of tht place...

i had a nice time in my coll,not a gr888 one though.. and being in one of the best colls can never give u a hard time...i never thought, getting out of my coll wld make me sad at one point of time..but the day my last exam got over i.e on 9th April 2008,i was kinda traumatised..all kinds of emotions were running inside me..happy,sad,...i wanted to hug alll my friends,classmates and cry for a while..i cldnt believe tht i finished my coll...i was finished with my UG..!!!

i dint even get a month break off after my 10th...i was running from pillar to post since thn...so i purposely planned in starting with my PG from AUGUST.!!!..and sooo here i am..:):)

And today i am back to sqaure one..i still have sum time to join my NEW coll and i shit scared again..for probably the same reasons again..but one thing tht i knw for sure is tht,i will definitely try and make this a wonderful experiance for myself..!!!

And all of u out thr who r still in coll,just remember to utilise ur coll life to the fullest...coz its NEVER EVER GOING TO COME BACK FOR U ..!!!!!...COLLEGE DAYS ARE INDEED SPECIAL..!!!!cyaaa..

HEART SPLIT

MY LIFE IS A DARK WORLD,
NO SUN,NO MOON,NO STARS,
NO WELL WISHER,NO FRIEND,NO LOVE,

YET,I SEE A LIGHT...
LIGHT OF HOPE.....
LIGHT OF HEART'S GLOW.

I HEAR THE RAIN DROPS,
FALLING FROM THE SKY ABOVE,
I FEEL A TEAR DROP,
FROM MY EYE....
SO MUCH.......THAT I SEE THE SKY CRY FOR ME,
FOR THE PAIN,FOR THE ANGUISH AND THE FEAR
ALL WRAPPED UP IN ME.....

YET I SEE A LIGHT......
LIGHT OF HOPE.....
LIGHT OF HEART'S GLOW.......

I CHEATED ON MY LOVE YESTERDAY,
SO BAD...THAT I CLDN'T DELUDE HIM ANYMORE.....
TONIGHT I SEE MYSELF FALL......
FALL FROM THE CLIFF,
BIDDING GOOD-BYE TO ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD....
JUST WHEN I FELT A TEAR DROP ON MY HAND LIKE A PEARL...

YET I SEE A LIGHT......
LIGHT OF HOPE....A CALL FROM THE SKY ABOVE....

A BEAUTY OF "LOVE".

YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE AS A COMET
BRINGING LIGHT AND BRIGHTNESS.

YOU ENTERED MY SOUL AND HEART AND
SPREAD YOUR MAGIC THROUGH OUT,

YOUR TOUCH WAS LIKE A HEALING TOUCH TO ME,
YOU ARE LIKE MY SHADOW WHO'S ALWAYS THERE WITH ME,

YOU ARE LIKE THE RAYS OF THE SUN
WHO ENLIGHTENED MY LIFE AS NEVER BEFORE,

YOU HELD MY HANDS DURING TROUBLES,

YOU GAVE ME CONFIDENCE TO BELIEVE YOUR LOVE FOR ME,

YOUR LOVE AND YOUR TOUCH NURTURED ME,

LIKE THE LIGHT OF THE SUN,

LIKE THE RHYTHM OF THE HEART BEAT,

AND LIKE THE TEAR IN THE EYE,

I WANT YOU TO BE ALWAYS WITH ME,BESIDE ME,HOLDING ME AND BELIEVING IN ME.



THIS IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY FOR THE PERSON WHO TAUGHT ME WHAT "LOVE" IS.!!!!!!


PS:-NEVER LOOSE AN OPPURTUNITY TO EXPRESS YOUR LOVE BEFORE IT GETS REALLY LATE AND BROOD ON IT LATER.........

THE BEST TIME I HAD......

It was in the year 1996 when I came down to Hyderabad from Vijayawada. Dad was working here and so we had to shift over to this place. I detested the very idea of moving away from the place where I had spend the blissful years of my life and I was closely related to that place.. It wasn’t easy to forget the 7 years of my childhood spent in vijayawada.-.my school, my best friends, my grandparents, and many other things that would make me miss tht place like hell.
I had completed my 4th by the time we left tht place.. I was so adamant not to come here that I showed my displeasure at every school I went to take a look for further admission, in hyderabad , coz its gets really difficult for me to get accustomed in a new place, new school with many new people –new environment. Usually many people like getting into a new place and meeting new people but it scares the hell out of me. I got admissions in many schools here but I took a fancy to the JHPS aka JUBILEE HILLS PUBLIC SCHOOL coz I felt at home here for various reasons. It gave me the feel of the old school, because the uniform of this school was the same as Vijayawada’s and the principal at that time Mr. Thomas Kappen, happened to be associated with the Montfort Brothers, which was organization St. Matthews belonged to, his very presence there made this school like home to me.

I joined this school in my 5th.I found many nice people here, and I found many of my old school friends too. This was a huge relief tht made me get settled down very comfortably. Intrinsically, I am considered to be pretty good at taking part and winning various competitions like elocutions, recitations, debate, dancing and singing. .I was applauded for my achievements in such activities than compared to my “achievements” in studies. The reason behind keeping achievements in quotations is to tell u guys tht I am not very brilliant at studies. In JHPS too I was lionized coz of such activities. I and my other close friends had formed a group which was well known for all the singing and dance competitions. So this group of abt 8 ppl had a presentation in every program conducted in the school and by the school too. We had great fun during these events both pre event and post event. Pre events because its was exciting to skip boring classes of history or maths and compose and rehearse for our exposition. And post events because it was a proud feeling for all of us to receive wonderful compliments. This school also taught me leadership qualities and sportsman ship(well this was an area I never tried my hand at) .I had spent a real pleasant school life. Years rolled by and soon I realised that I had to leave school after the 10th. It was a sinking feeling when I realized tht it was time to bid adieu to this alma mater. It was somehow arduous for me continue my life without my school friends, school uniform, P.T classes, art classes and many more tht won’t remain any more. Because now ,as I am told tht its time to “mould and concentrate on my career.”But that’s life I guess, we have to move on, and so we did, all of us parted ways and took to studying further in different colleges. This was the end of the GOLDEN ERA,nonetheless stepping into a world of responsibilty. Today when I look back on those years at school, I have a smile on my face and I have no regrets. I am content tht I had lots of fun and spent my school life in the best way possible.

Today I realize tht school life is the most vital and the luxurious part of our lives as we don’t have to face any pressures. There was a time when I wanted to be big and independent because I used to think tht then no one would ever interfere in my life and I could do anything tht I wanted to, but today I want to go back to school, get pampered, rehearse for programs…….Alas !!tht time has never waited for anyone ever, I am no exception, but the school will always have a place in my heart and the friends made during the school life are the best ever, u can always rely on then coz they were our friends in the days on innocence………

I hope each one of you reading this article had the best schooling ever.

SHARE,BUT DON'T SUPRESS THEM--YOUR FEELINGS

You often find yourself in pain,in anger,in joy and many other emotions running inside you,but u never know whom to share it with inspite of having many people around you.I don't want to be very philosophical in this issue.But i personally think tht its not very essential to have a "human figure" to share feelings with.You can express them in a piece of paper too.True, you don't get anything in return i.e. penning it down on a paper neither consoles you nor eases you with tht tension,but atleast there's a satisfaction tht you r letting out your feelings instead of piling them in your tiny heart tht ultimately suffers with confusion to pump your blood or your problems.

It really gets suffocated when you heap up your emotions and feint to be having no problem at all. The suffocation leads up to pain and they were times when i cried to myself and consoled myself too.Initially,i found it insane but surprisingly i found it to be both better as well as soothing.

While reading this one might think tht i am writing all these as though i have been experiencing tragedies throughout and ultimately became an expert in handling them. But my dear reader,I don't think one has to be Ralph Galeno or Sherlock Patty to convey something.

Like G.B.Shaw quoted:There are 2 tragedies in life.One is not to get your heart's desire.The other is to get it.
This article is for people who often don't find time to nestle with their sentiments,its for those people who are not emotive and its for those who are feint.I don't share my feelings with many people and there are many others who are like me.Not that i don't have anybody to share with.I have plenty of them,right from my family to my friends.But its just that people like me are reserved and would like to be in their own small world.Hey folks!but luckily i found my someone to share my feelings with and its my DIARY. Yes,you read it right,"a diary".I have been maintaining it for quite some time now and i am proud to have it coz I don't have have to be vexed or brood when i don't find time or rather when ppl don't find time for me.Frankly speaking its become a part of my life now and my diary is HUMAN because it lives-lives in my feelings and thoughts.

This article is pretty confusing but hey !!! LIFE ITSELF IS CONFUSING..!!!!! All you ppl reading this might just forget abt it soon after u close this file but plz sit down and think.-think abt urself,think abt ppl around u and abt ur spirits.This doesn't take ages-just abt 2 mins of your precious ,busy time..

Thank you for reading this !!!!!!!

HAVE A GOOD DAY !!!!